THE TITLE IS: DELAYS AND DEADLY WONDERINGS

I'm sorry for the delay in releasing REFRESHING BORING DEADLY but personal issues have keep me off the computer and mostly in a daze of feeling like shit and thinking like shit internally, if that makes any sense to anyone but me? The little story thing in the last post is the type of fiction I write when working through feelings in my brain. For the most part those end up in the trash or just in paper journals but I thought I would share a little of my madness, you can thank me later.

I guess every since I left my last job, through struggles and failures in trying to help friends, being betrayed by friends, being salad sided with the constant pain of my teeth, being hospitalized, being shown that no matter how bad my health is- money changes everything, feeling like crap in the job search...I guess with all of those things and others like having to sale my truck, I'm digging myself out of a grave of deep depression that is one hand full of dirt at a time. Wave has been a saint for putting up with me.

From now on I think I will concentrate on the projects I have to work on, the big ones, and not bring in too many little things like REFRESHING BORING DEADLY. I will finish R.B.D. and other small projects; which will be sometimes free and sometimes for a small charge but I think I will do them simply as side projects, at my own pace, and only announce when finished. I also need to keep up on outside my writing life things that keep me sane like going to the gym, keeping up with our new little garden area, cleaning the apartment and keeping it clean, cooking, and enjoying having someone in my life who I love more than anything else in the world....Yes Wave, more than my Doctor Who stuff :)

Currently I'm working on a YA book, I have a idea for another YA book which I want to write with a friend, I have the next book in the Tin Universe series in progress, and a charity project. Not to say I will not be doing anything outside of these things if lets say a paying project or an interesting non-paying project comes along, I'm there, but I need focus. My body and mind right now does not have focus and I need to take charge of the whole mess and make something of it no matter how I feel.

C.

THE TITLE IS: DELAYS AND DEADLY WONDERINGS

THE TITLE IS: FOREVER?

REFRESHING BORING DEADLY will be delayed until Friday night due to my health and generally feeling like shit mentally and physically. Apologizes to all were planning on downloading it.

Projects, dreams,trucks,family, thoughts of dying, bills, and thoughts of fading out of existence. There you have a look into the state of mind of this writer.
C.

THE TITLE IS: FOREVER?

THE TITLE IS: THERE ONCE WAS A LITTLE MAN WHO COULDN'T DO IT...

I will be putting my truck up for sale, actually someone has already told me they will buy it in the middle of next month. The truck has mostly just sat in the parking lot since I left my last job because Wave's car is better on gas, drive, and everything else. I really don't wont to do this but for many reasons it is the best course of action for me to take right now. I walked in Florida for a few years before I purchased my truck and it looks like I'll be doing so again. One it needs work done to it that I can't afford to have done, two it burns gas, three when I finally find a job it would have to be within walking distance anyways because of gas prices so I might as well get rid of it, and three I need the money. I need the money to buy my love a birthday gift, I need money to pay bills, and I need money so I will not feel like a total worthless piece of shit sitting around being shit and playing writer boy.

Speaking of writer boy. The PDF for the dollar download collection REFRESHING BORING DEADLY will be linked up from here tonight as I'm currently working on last minute, "THIS IS TOTAL SHIT! THIS IS TOTAL SHIT!" edits.

C.

THE TITLE IS: THERE ONCE WAS A LITTLE MAN WHO COULDN'T DO IT...

THE TITLE IS: ANGELIC JONES....Wait, sounds like a porno name...

Last night Wave brought home Kevin Smith: My Boring-Ass Life which I had been waiting for from the library for a long time. It has been on hold for me for about six months now. I started reading some of it last night and this morning. Since she did not have to work today we make a couple of library trips and I picked up Neon Genesis Evangelion: Angelic Days-Vol.1(which seems to be a slightly more tame and YA version of the story from what I've read so far) Catch-22, the movie(I spotted a poster for this while watching The L-Word the other night and told myself, you know you have never actually watched that movie, so I checked it out today)Catch And Release(we went to the theater for this when it first came out because Kevin Smith is in it and I thought I would check it out for a review) and to round out my library take aways I picked up Volume 1, discs 3-6 of The Adventures Of Young Indiana Jones. I should go through all of that tonight.

Writing wise I'm finishing up the final touches on Mexican Coffee and Refreshing Boring Deadly which will be available at LuLu to download at the end of this month. The first for free and the second for a small small fee.

C.

THE TITLE IS: ANGELIC JONES....Wait, sounds like a porno name...

THE TITLE IS: COFFEE CORNER COKE CRACK COOKER

I have a smoothie in one hand which ='s my morning meal and a coke in the other which ='s the first sip of addiction for the day. Had a really good night hanging out with one of our best friends The Queen last night. Wave made Reese's brownies, I made veggie nuggets, and we all watched, Sweeney Todd and Ed Wood. A good night over all and this was the Queen's first time to visit us since we added two more to our family.

Wave has a NOW meeting today so I will either clean up the place a little or work on Mexican Coffee, Refreshing Boring Deadly, or something else story wise that is pricking at my brain like a hungry vulture. Now I could end up sitting on the couch watching some DVDs I have viewed 800 times before like episodes of M*A*S*H while also working on notes for the next Tin Universe book...well, it is highly likly that maybe the case that may come to pass but either way I will be getting some writing work done that needs to be worked on.

Speaking of the lady I love again, she has a work trip coming up and I will be using the time to mock up a press kit for a project that I should be at least announcing some details about soon while she is off doing her thing.

Though things kind of suck for me personal right in in so many ways in other ways things are actually looking ok...knock on wood.....or if you are in arms length, my head....

Oh, and I almost forgot to mention. I'm going to try and get myself in the habit of cross posting these in Live Journal when I mention any projects I'm working on. I know I will not always do this and this is still the best place to hear all my ranting, rambling, and general personal B.S. but until I have time to set up a feed into that community I need to at least make my shadow fall more often upon those grounds....hey, I almost sounded like a writer there?
C.

THE TITLE IS: COFFEE CORNER COKE CRACK COOKER

THE TITLE IS: THE CATS TRIED TO TAKE MY SUSHI FROM ME

The cats got us up early this morning. This happening today was ok though since Wave had to get up early anyways but neither of us are morning people and if this starts to be a daily thing we might have to sit the boys down for a discussion. Still trying to get everything good for them here. We still need to buy another litter box and get the bedroom all cleaned up and cat friendly. They seem to be settled in much better now. Last night they ran around and played with each other for a long time as we were eating dinner. We still need to brake them of some bad habits they got before they came to us, like trying to eat human food, but other wise things should be ok once we get another litter box and get them back to the vet for check ups to make sure they are ok or heading in the right direction at least. I know Garfield really hates being in doors now and looks at the window almost all day long...well, when he isn't chasing Salem or me....

I tried to email a photo last night of the sushi I made but it didn't go through right for some reason? I'm still working on getting everything straight so I can post little bits from my phone from time to time when not at a computer.

Today I'm going to be working on a little brief PDF story which will be FREE for all to view later this month called MEXICAN COFFEE. After that and still during this month, I will also be releasing a small writing collection called REFRESHING BORING DEADLY which will be available for $1.00 as a PDF download as well.

But before I do any of that it is early morning food time and then garbage, then put up last nights dishes from the dish washer, and then....?
C.

THE TITLE IS: THE CATS TRIED TO TAKE MY SUSHI FROM ME